I do not go out that often anymore. The desire to drink myself into a stupor, away from the moment, away from the reality isn’t appealing in the same way as before. I’ve changed. Less self-destructive than before. Looking towards the light trying to keep the demons down. Filling myself with work and other activities so there is no time for excesses. But tonight, tonight my dear, things will happen. I’m going out. Not in order to repress anything but because I want to. Because I’m going out with the people I love and care about.
Xoxo, a not so dark mind after all.