I know that you used to love her. You admired her once. She was everything to you. She got your heart. You kissed her on her forehead. You told her that you loved her from the bottom of your heart. You told her that she was special. One af a kind.
Never have I ever believed that it would matter at all.
It does.
She’s the ghost who will never disappear. The woman who turns op again and again and each time increases the pain.
I want her out af my live. Out of ours.
You could change it. Made me feel that a change was possible.
That I could become a better person, a real lovable one of a
kind. And I wanted to believe it. I wanted to show myself that
something different could be the meaning of existence. It fills my
soul with disgust and evil desires. To blame you is not an option.
It’s all me. My small dark mind is calling from the inside and the
one to pay the price is us. Unfairly.
Is it love or is it the fear of losing it that keep us together? Or is it the security it gives us? To know that we are us. A closed circuit for two in which the magic is forever. Is it the idea of love that makes us appreciate what we have? Is it real? Can we be without it?
I’ll seek you out, flay you alive
one more word and you won’t survive
And I’m not scared of your stolen power
I see right through you any hour
I won’t soothe your pain. I won’t ease your strain
You’ll be waiting in vain. I got nothing for you to gain
I’m taking it slow feeding my flame
Shuffling the cards of your game
And just in time in the right place
Suddenly I will play my ace
I won’t soothe your pain. I won’t ease your strain
You’ll be waiting in vain. I got nothing for you to gain
Feeling a bit destroyed. Those days where coffee is a lifesaver and the music have to roar out of the speakers to close everything out. The days where the cigarettes almost smokes themself. These destroyed, inspiring days. The days where everything important doesn’t really matter. And you feel good.. destroyed, and it’s kind of okay.
small dark mind 